Morning Workouts, or Daily Workouts

I find it so difficult to get out of bed on mornings when I don't work, but I know I should, I know I should get up do  quick exercise circuit, but I don't.  I usually laze in bed and then get up, then eat, then play on Facebook, Twitter, or Pinterest for an hour, then I clean the house, and then I do anything but exercising.  ANYTHING!!  I know this is so bad for me, especially because I am considering saving myself some money by quitting the gym and just getting a family pass at the Collicut for the year.  It's cheaper because Hubby works for the city, so then we can both go.  I know, absolutely KNOW that, hubby would not have half the aches and pains he did if he began working out regularly.  So for 1/2 the price of my gym membership a month, I could take my whole family to one of the City Centers, (Collicut, Rec Center, Dawe) and work out there.  We would also get to go swimming as a family or do lane swimming with other friends.  So the thought of quitting the gym, though it pains me to say it, means that I have to become more motivated at home to stay active and in shape.

The gym has given me some great tools and I am very happy with them.  I am not quitting the gym because I am not happy with my trainer, in fact I would offer my trainer money to come train my hubby and I for one hour a week just to make sure I stay on track.  I am quitting the gym because my family cannot afford the cost anymore, especially if we begin looking into moving away from the city. 

So this is what I have begun in December that I am going to push on my entire house.  (Yes I am that pushy, my 2 y/o will even get involved)  I typed up 14 different quick workouts for us to do in the morning. Some will take 15 minutes others closer to 45.  I am going to print them off and put them onto some Scrapbooking paper then we will put them in a little container.  Each day we will pick one of them to do the next morning, and Hubby and I will for sure do them at some point during the day, then we will pick another one.  We will both get one veto day, or day of rest, but it doesn't have to be the same day.  But when we are working out it has to be the same workout.  If the kids are up they will join us.

Also the days I usually go to the gym we will still go to the gym to workout and we will add another day to that schedule so that we are going to the gym 4 times a week.  I think we will work on cardio mostly, but we will definitely do some strength training too. 

Much to my family's dismay we are going to go be changing some eating habits as well.  Especially my hubby, who still snacks out on chips and goodies all the time.  He is going to be put on my diet and I will be making his lunch and snacks and breakfasts for him and he will eat them..... because I said so with love of course.

I will update my workout cards when I have them done, I need to get pictures for them too, so that we know what we have to do.  But it's going to be so worth it.  I heard awhile ago that a family who works out together stays together.

Dirty Dozen Work Out

This is seriously a hard work out.  We did this workout when my trainer was on holidays.  I think the goal of the substitute trainer was to kill us.  Seriously, we had the most brutal workout. It didn't help that I had been missing a week prior to doing this workout, but I still think it would have been a dirty workout, regardless.  The trainer called it the Dirty Dozen.  I think it was a very appropriate name.

We started with a warm up, whis is a bit unusual, but it wasn't horrible.  We got our heart rates up and warmed up before we went to face death.  The warm up was a collection of cardio activities from jogging, to high knees, to butt kicks, lateral squats and walking lunges.  First of all I have no coordination to do walking lunges I always tip to one side while doing them.  We had practicum students leading the workout and I am probably the worst student to teach.  I rolled my eyes and proceeded through the warmup, only to be faced with a horrible workout on the white board.

The workout looked horrible, and we hadn't even started it yet.  This is how the workout was written
  1. Burpees
   2. TRX Jump squats/ TRX squats ( TRX is the name of the equipment we were using)
   3. KB Swings/ OH press (KB= Kettle Bell/ OH = Over Head Press)
   4. MB Slams (MB+ Medicine Ball)
   5. Bosu push ups ( Bosu are those half balls)

12----->1 then
1------->12

Meaning we had to do these 5 exercises with descending reps, then repeat with ascending.  So we started with 12 burpees, 12 TRX Jump Squats, 12 Kettle Bell Swings, 12 Medicine Ball slams, 12 Bosu Push , then 11 of each then 10 of each and so on and so forth.  When we got down to 1 we started over again at 1 and worked our way back up to 12. 

I made it to the end and back up to 3 reps of each exercise.  Then I died, or wished I had.

We ended the 60 minute workout with ab exercises.  We did a 1/2 tabata or three different Ab workouts.  A tabata is 20 secs of work and 10 secs of rest 8 times. A half tabata is 20 secs of work 10 secs of rest 4 times.  We did Bicycle crunches, the plank and V sit extender. 

I was so sore after this workout!!  But it was a great workout and one that can be altered for at home with little to no equipment.

For example you can do Burpees, Squats, Lunges, tricep dips on a chair, push ups.  Then you can do the tabata as well of ab exercises.  Yup try it let me know what you think!!!

New Diet Planning

I have been doing a lot of reading lately on dieting and planning an appropriate diet, where you get all your nutrients and all your vitamins but where it still tastes good. 

I believe that processed sugar is not great for you, but I believe if you practice portion control and serving sizes, you will do fine with eating a balance of sweets and nutritious foods.  That being said, I do not believe that you can live or subsist on a diet of treats alone, nor if you are entering a competition where they are going to evaluate your body, do I think you should indulge in these treats.  However, if you are only trying to maintain a healthy diet then these habits or portion control and serving sizes will be very beneficial.

I read, in a book, I believe it was Eat, Pray, Love, that the Italians never eat anything, they taste everything but eat nothing.  It's a habit to sample all the food in front of you but to not eat everything.  I don't believe in wasting food, but I believe in second and third helpings if you need them.  That would be the way to truly be able to manage your weight.

So that is my goal for the next 21 days.  I am going to manage my portions and take second helpings if I am hungry but all my meals will be manageable and won't leave me stuffed.  I will use my hand as my guide for what size of portions I should be eating.  Maybe even my plate division, but I am going limit my treat intake to just weekends and during the weeks I will stick to the 4 food groups to maintain my diet and we will see how that goes.

Also as I am on a weight loss cycle right now and not onto maintaining my weight yet, I will be having two protein shakes a day as a meal replacement, one at breakfast and one for a bed time snack, I will post some more recipes that I try in the future in case anyone else wants to join me. 

The next 21 day plan will be exercising, getting back on that stupid Wii fit and making those programs work for me, and doing my Jillian Michaels DVDs.  Bikini Body 2012 is going to be smoking!!!

Weigh Ins again.....

I am getting so frustrated with my weight, but at least my measurements are going down.  My weight is staying up and it's not at a number I am comfortable with, that's just the honest truth.  However, my measurements are down, I went down a whole eight inches on the skinniest part of my waist in three weeks, so I just have to stick to my new diet plan and things should be ok.

I am down 2% in measurements and up 1% in weight.  So it could be muscle mass, and as my clothes are fitting well and even better still I am inclined to believe that.  I just wish the number on the scale didn't mean so much to me right now. It means less and less, but it is the one number I can easily check to keep myself on track. I guess from now I on I have to just check my dress size. 

Protein Shakes

I have been going to my gym for almost ten months now.... that's shocking!!  But it has taken me at least nine months to enjoy Protein Shakes.  I seriously hated them and the thought of having to drink one would turn my stomach.

But now I am enjoying them.  I am even willing to try new shakes.  My good friend Michelle is sending me some Visallis Shakes in the mail to try and may order them if I enjoy them.  But for now I am creating tasty treats in my own home basing my ingredients on my diet plan from the gym.

My two new favourites are:  Peanut Butter Banana Chocolate Cup and Vanilla Berry Banana Cup.

The ingredients are listed below in a single serving size but feel free to experiment, it's the only way to find how you like your Whey.......

Peanut Butter Chocolate Cup                                                                            Vanilla Berry Banana Cup

1/2 banana                                                                             1/2 banana

1 heaping tbsp of Peanut Butter                                             5-6 strawberries

1 cup 1% milk                                                                        1/8 -1/4 cup blueberries

1 scoop of Chocolate Protein Powder                                    1 cup 1% milk

2-3 ice cubes                                                                           1 scoop Vanilla Protein Powder

Blend for all it's worth and drink                                            2-3 ice cubes

                                                                                               Blend and Enjoy

It's only a number..

We had our weigh ins again this week.  Sometimes I dread these bi-monthly occurrences but they do help to keep me honest or more honest.


I need to create an excel sheet that will record my body changes in percentages.  I am really good with Mircosoft, but sometimes it's hard because I don't use Excel that often and sometimes my ideas are much more complicated than I initially think they are.  With this spreadsheet I would have actual stats to show me how well my workouts are going.  Also if I stick to my diet I would be able to see how much more the diet helps in the weight loss category because sometimes I am still skeptical at the diet component.


So here is what I found out from the latest weigh-in.  I am up 4 pounds, not good, but I am not worried until I see the differences in the measurements.  It is the inches where it counts.  So the bad news is I am up 2 centimeters in my chest, Jayzus, the one area I want to lose inches, I gain almost an inch.  I mean some girls may enjoy gaining inches in the chest, but I don't want to go up to an E cup. Like come ON!!!  The Ok news, I have not changed in inches thighs, glutes or neck or shoulders.  The good news, I am down  5 cm in my waist, this would be the smallest part of my waist, my calf is down 3 cm, and my bicep is down 1 cm.  


So here is my next goal.  I am going to book a photo shoot with a photographer, or if money is an issue I am going to set up a photo shoot with my friend where we do some glamour shots and do our hair and make up.  I want it to be an Old Hollywood shoot, so I have to get some ideas for hair and make up and then outfits.  But I think this would be great to keep me motivated and it will be a great  activity to do with my friend or friends that want to get involved with this.

Finding a new end date.

I have every intention to continue working out and watching my diet, but I have encountered a slight problem..... yup I find that I don't feel the desire to stay on the diet as strictly as before.

When I started my lifestyle lift, I had long term and short term goals, many of which have fell to the wayside at this point, but the weight loss one stuck.  I felt that I had let myself go since the passing of my father and the subsequent pregnancy etc, etc.  

Not that I had become Jabba the Hut, but I was four rolls short of this happening, seriously, it was not a great situation.  I happen to be one of those people that can put on weight, and I put it on fairly evenly through my entire body so it's not like one area becomes a problem and the rest still look great. No, as I put on weight I develop all the problem areas, belly, thighs, double chin, wingy arms, well you get the picture.

So then I decided I want to get in shape, for the long run, which is a more important factor than any other that I have come up with, to enable myself to have more energy and be healthy for my kids.  I wanted to enjoy their childhoods so that I could participate with them in their activities and not just be stuck on the sidelines watching because I had no endurance to keep up with them.  The shorter term goals had to deal with the wedding and wanting to look amazing in my wedding dress.

Now I am finding that I don't have the same will power to stick to my diet, because I don't have anything that I am working towards.  Just my long term goals, but there isn't really an end date in which I have to bee a certain weight/size by.  I talked with my trainer and she suggested trying to sign up for a bikini show, which is based on how you look and stuff, but I don't know that I am ready for that.  That seems like it might be a long way off when I look in the mirror, so I need something that may be in the middle of that.  She also suggested doing a Boudoir photo shoot.  Which is something I have considered, but now I have to decide how long I want to give myself to set up this end date. 

I have determined that I would like to lose another 15 lbs.  We were talking at the gym the other day that to loose a healthy amount of weight you should take your weight  multiply it by 10% then divide it by 52.  I think that was the formula and if I follow that formula, that would mean I need to loose 1 pound a week.  I don't know that that is the formula, but when we were figuring it at the gym that is what we came up with. 

Therefore, it can be determined that if I want to lose 15 pounds I  should give myself 15 weeks to obtain my goal.  Thus, by Christmas I should be at my goal weight.  But then what goal do I put for myself, do I set up a Boudoir photo shoot as my reward for reaching my goal weight?  Should I set it up for before Christmas on the 22 or should I set it up for just after New Years?  Or just before New Years? 

I am leaning towards doing a Boudoir shoot, so I can pretend I am a model, and maybe I can be discovered.  Then I can reset my short term goals to maybe do a small bikini show, but I have to set my mind to this goal.  I can't just make the goal, but not actually set up the shoot, because if it's not a concrete possibility in my head I won't do it.

Any ideas or suggestions from my readers would be greatly appreciated!!!!

so here's where I am at....

I have given myself four weeks to get into shape, and lose ten pounds.  Now that isn't my final desired weight for my life, but it's the weight at which I would like to leave Canada before my wedding.  So I had four weeks to get to work and work out in order to accomplish this goal.

I have been working out and I have made some motivational pictures and posters to hang up so I know the desired look I am working towards.  I have been good on my diet, there have been a few, oops-ies, but nothing that has totally derailed me.  Nothing I don't think a little extra effort can't burn off. 

Awhile ago I posted some dreaded bikini shots of me, the front the rear and the side view, I had Adrian take them again so that I could have a visual comparison.  I am down five pounds in the after pictures but you wouldn't be able to tell, at least I don't think you can.  That and the lighting and distance of the pictures was changed so it's hard to say.  I am going to retake them tomorrow so I can get a better sense of what's going on.  I know that I had my measurements and I am down a total of 6 inches as well.  So there are changes happening, and they should be visual, but I think I need another pair of eyes to tell me what they think.  I could be dreaming it all, but I don't think I am.

So here are my pictures for you to see.  Let's see if we notice anything.

So this is the whole shot with all six photos side by side, I will now put up three more pictures with each view on it's on page.

Besides the love handles I don't see much difference but that could be on account of the lighting, angel and the fact that I have a great tan now is really coming through.

Here are the dreaded first set of bikini shots

I am trying to be brave and not worry about what my insecure voice is going to say once i put this out there.  It's one thing to put up shots of yourself in gym clothes but it's quite another to put up bikini shots when you used to be over 200 lbs.  yes I said it that was my top weight when I decided enough was enough.  I have lost 20 lbs of fat but gained some lean muscle mass, so my weight isn't down 20 lbs but it's close.  I have lost more since these photos were taken a total of 3 lbs. So I think my next shots that I will take tonight will maybe show some of these changes.
 So here are the front, side and rear view of me.  I am going to do another blog here soon and show and progression of pictures, from when I started to now.

Running, running anywhere

I am starting to enjoy running again. I have gone out twice (well I know it's not much but still) and I thoroughly enjoyed myself both times.

I have done a 4 km run and 5 km run.  The 5 I did last night and it took me 30 minutes, I am terrible at telling time when I am working out and I couldn't tell if it was longer or shorter than 30 minutes. I have decided that next time I go out I am going to plan out my route so that it's longer.  Maybe 7 km and build myself up to 10 km by the time my friend Alex gets here, then I can try to take her on a run with me.

So that's what I did yesterday, and today I went for a walk.  It took us an hour to walk to the library and back.  It was a good walk, like 4 miles, which is like 9 km.  I enjoy walking to the library, I get books and I get to be outside with lil man enjoying the summer weather.

I don't know what day it is of 55

But I am back.  My access to a computer was limited while I was in Saskatchewan, well it wasn't limited I just chose not to access the computer.  And my mother's wifi is so hidden I can't ever find it, so I didn't feel like sitting upstairs at night after they had gone to bed to update my blog.  There it is I was being lazy....

However I did go for a run on Friday, a long run too and on Saturday and Sunday I went for long walks with friends.

Eating not so great, but I am ready for the next 4 weeks to bust my ass in the gym and with my nutrition.  I have a new nutrition plan and I am going to bust my ass to lose these last ten pounds.  Ten pounds and I should be in good form for the wedding, I can even work on losing another 4 pounds while traveling down to the wedding.

I know I can do it and I am going to look amazing for the beach and my wedding!! And for the fall!!  I am not going to be lazy or use any other excuses I am going to do this and I am going to see some amazing results!!!

Day 9 of 55

Well it was the last day of school, so besides feeling a little sad because I was done for the year, it was an ok day.

I didn't eat great but I didn't eat to badly, and I was active.  I went for walks around the school and then I played with Little Man when I got home, it wasn't much but for the way I was feeling it was a lot!!

Day 8 of 55

Today was an excellent day!!!

I ate well, not perfectly but I ate well.  Also I did some walking with Lil Man and then I went to the gym where I pounded out my workout. 

I am loving my new workouts, but I do need to do a workout at home to ensure that I am making progress in getting stronger and faster at working out.  Although yesterday we had to run around the outside of the gym 3 times which three months ago was a serious struggle for me.  I am thinking that since it's been over a week of working out I am going to post a dreaded bikini picture so that I can see the comparison in a weeks time.

Hopefully that will be even more incentive for me to work doubly hard this month before the big nuptial trip!!!

Day 6&7 of 55

Ok so I got a little behind on this whole diary type blogging for my countdown to the wedding.  But I think most weekends will usually be like this so I will just group them together and update on Monday, that will be way easier.

So didn't have a great dieting weekend, but I didn't eat too badly.

I didn't do to much exercising either.  I only played some Kinect with Chandler on Saturday, but I feel I made up for it on Sunday.  I did a whole bunch of yard work on Sunday and I was able to clean up under my deck and do the edging around my yard.

So today is Monday I will update what I am doing in a later blog.

Day 4 of 55

Today was not a good day.  It's the end of the year and we are doing all kinds of wrap up parties and well, unfortunately, the kids don't always bring only healthy food, and when it comes to sweets my will power falters. 

Then it was a day at school all day with me not participating in gym today, I just didn't really feel like it.  They were playing dodge ball, and well they were a little too exuberant with their competitiveness. 

And now Sherry isn't going to the gym tonight because she doesn't feel well (get better soon Sherry) but it is a deterrent from going to the gym especially since Nicole is absent today as well.  But I am going to go then I am going to meet up with Adrian for a steak night or something.  It will be fine and I can get back on track tomorrow,  so I am not too worried right now.  But today hasn't been  a great day!!  Not one of the days I will be highlighting that's for sure!!!

Day 3 of 55

So another day of working out and keeping active.

Took the little man and the dog to the dog park today.  It's a good hike around, usually it takes about 40 minutes. It took us over an hour, but that's because Little man wanted to walk part of it, and well he is easily distracted. 

Then it was an afternoon and relaxation and enjoyment.  I wanted to do another workout tonight but I am so exhausted and burnt out that I just needed a break.  So I took it.  I will get back into everything tomorrow.  Another gym class, another workout and maybe some time at the driving range.

Keeping active to keep in shape!!!

Day 2 of 55

So today I had to work and I was exhausted.  It was a surprising day because I got two preps instead of one since my Grade fives were in Track and Field. I had planned on staying really late at work to complete my tests and marking so that all I had left to do on exam day was correcting the final exam.  However, I think I will get home a little earlier since I finished all that and I packed up my car and classroom.  It's time to move on out. :'(

So there wasn't much going on for physical activity yet today.  In my last class we went for a walk to the park and that took 20 minutes.  So that was a good thing.  I will be driving home and then I will be applying to a couple places for evening jobs this summer.  Finally, I will be going to my workout at the gym.  It's going to be a good workout.  I just know it.  Then I may go to bed I am exhausted.  It was a late night last night and an early morning too.

I am pretty sure I won't have to work tomorrow so I will be able to go for a walk with Lil Man again and maybe take the dog too.  Apparently, the dog is not happy with us and tried to run away three times today.  Thank God for good neighbours.  We might just go down to the dog park, going to phone a friend with a dog to see if they want to meet us.  Need to get out more and do these things.  So those are the plans.

We were measured on Monday so I will post the results and comparisons tomorrow or later tonight so you can see what's going on. 

Day 1 of 55

So today is Day one.

I have not been very active yet, today, been working in front of the computer because I am trying to finish my study guides and my final exam for next Tuesday.

But the plan for today is to go out for a long walk with lil man.  I think we may go to the library to return some books.  That should take us an hour to get there and back.  Afterwards, we will play in the yard and let lil man run off any energy he has so he will have a long nap.

Tonight I have plans with Krysta to do a Crossfit workout.  It's a short workout but it's a good one that will get our blood pumping and muscles moving.  We will be doing a fifteen minute workout, where for each minute we do that number of pushups, sit-ups and squats.  I am looking forward to it.  Afterwards I think I have earned a chance to sit down and relax for a bit.

Must have balance in life!!!

Roughly Six Weeks to go

I am going to challenge myself to write in this blog once a day, as a daily record of what activities I am doing in order to make my goals.  I am finding that I am plateauing right now, just not really moving anywhere up or down on the scale.  The number I am not worried about but I do want to be able to fit into my clothes and my skinny clothes.  I would actually like to refer to my skinny clothes as my regular clothes and not my skinny clothes but that is something altogether different.

I am upset about one thing though.  It's such a stupid thing to be upset about, but it is really frustrating for me.  I grew up and I was consistently a C cup, even after my eldest was weaned I went back down to a C cup, not right away but I got there.  It was great because being a D was uncomfortable and bras are friggen expensive.  So I had myself measured yesterday, because I have been going down in sizes in all my clothes but my breasts don't seem to be moving.   I was measured at a DD!!! A DD?!?!?!?!  WTF?!?!?!  I am dieting and working out and my breasts are still carrying around an extra load of fat?  It hardly seems fair. 

I have decided I need to do my Fit Camps MWF and T and Th I have to do cardio as well as one day on the weekend then hopefully my cup size will go back to normal.  I just want to be able to wear my comfy bras and right now they just always look like I am going to pop out if I wear them.  bah oh well here is to the next 55 days before the wedding.  I know I can do it, do you guys have faith in me???

The Results are in (for me anyways)

Well I had my final weigh in for the six week challenge that I just participated in.  It was a good challenge, the exercise routines were different, the support was great and I had fun.  The only difference was that my trainer no longer looked at my meal plans so I definitely stopped writing down everything I was pass through my lips. 

Therefore, I cheated on my eating a few times.  Ok like two or three times in the last four weeks per week.  Seriously it wasn't a great thing.  But my break down didn't look to bad either.

I lost 7 pounds or weight.  In that weight loss I lost 2% body fat and gained 2% lean muscle.  I ended up losing 8 inches in total from when I started although my mid-measuring said that I had lost even more, but it's just with different people measuring so you have to take the good with the bad. 

I feel good about what I accomplished, and I know I still have some more work to do, but I am enjoying going to the gym.  It's really my only out of the house time I have so I take what I can get.  I am going to continue going to the gym until August for sure, after that I will have to re-evaluate what I am doing since I may not have a job in September and the gym is a little expensive.

However, I am seeing results and I don't feel I am working to exuberantly hard.  Just enough to get my energy up and my weight down.  I am loving it!!!!

The End is Near

So Tuesday is the end of my six week challenge... I know it was supposed to be Wednesday but they moved me and just left me a message about it.  I am not too happy, but I am a little worried.  I don't know that I made the amount of progress I need to win, but I am hoping that I will show a strong finish.  If for nothing else then for myself.  Would the prize help us out, for sure it would, it would help us with our trip and everything, but it won't stop us from going on our trip. 

I know I am down in weight but I am not sure how many more inches I have gone down, I know when Nicole measured me last week I was down quite a bit, but Nicole and Jessica measure differently so it's questionable.  I hope that I can make a strong finish and hopefully win, but if not I am feeling so much better and it will be another two months until we leave for my wedding!!!! 

Omg I am going to look great for my wedding, but still have some toning up to do.  Looks like it will be a busy 8 weeks yet!!!!

What I've learned in the past 6 months

I am literally amazed with myself.  I have stuck it out with One to 1 Fitness and have been on a diet and exercise regime that has not only shown me physical results but has also made me fell better about myself as well.  


There are a few things I have learned and come to appreciate in the past 6 months that I think should be shared with everyone.  


1) The number on the scale means less than what it is valued at by most people.  Muscle takes up less space than fat but a smaller area of muscle could weigh more than a larger area of fat.  It's not that muscle weighs more than fat, but it's more compact and won't take up as much space, but the number on the scale does not know that.
2) Energy levels are more important than the number on the scales, it doesn't matter what the scale says, it's what your body allows you to do, and how well you can function throughout the day.
3) Diet is very important to maintaining and losing weight, it's more important than exercise.  This I didn't believe in the beginning but I am finding that it is more true than I would like to give it credit for.
4) Clothing size is different for all designers and in some clothes I may be a size 12 and in others I may be a size 8, all that really matters is how I feel with the clothes on.
5) No one's opinion matters except my own when it comes to my own body.  Not everyone is going to like what they see, but as long as I like what I see, then I should take my happiness from that.


Those are the top five things I have learned, but I have learned more things as well.
6) Squats with one leg on a step with your foot pointed at an angle hurt your inner thighs.
7) running suicides SUCKS!!  Especially when you go full out, I need to work on my fast endurance because it is horrible right now.
8) I can do a real push up it's hard work, but I can do them, but a modified push up allows me to do more repetitions.
9) I have more strength then I am aware of, I must push myself to get more results and to push myself I can't be afraid to try heavier weights.
10) A sports bra is a necessity when working out, a regular bra does not keep the sisters in place.

2 weeks left

There are two weeks left in my six week challenge and I don't know how close I am to my goal.  I wish I knew how other people were doing so I could compare myself and set real goals for myself to reach in order to win.  In a race you can see how far back you are from the finish yet, I can't see how far behind or how far ahead I am.  I think I am behind by at least 6 pounds, so that has to go so I can at least be competitive with the other girl in my class.  I have no idea what other people are at so it's hard to compete for the goal when I am not sure where other people are. 

I know I know I am supposed to be concerned with myself, but I set out to win and I am not sure how far or close I am to reaching my goal.  The other thing that sucks at this point is my bloating, boo to having to go through these periods of times as a female.

So tonight we will have another set of measurements done and I will update you all on my progress.  I am hoping to see some definite changes!!!

Creature of Habit

I never thought I was to addicted to always doing the same thing with the same people, but as I grow older I have come to realize the I often find things I enjoy and I don't like them to change. I like consistency.

This is especially true when it comes to my working out routine.  I have struggled with stay  active consistently for my entire life. I definitely workout in spurts.  There are periods of time when I workout consistently active on my own for six months or more, generally through winter I find this easier as I like being indoors in the winter.  But then the weather will change or circumstances will change and I will lose my routine and then it's back to the weight gain and loss yo-yoing that I struggle with. I am not one of the fortunate few who can eat whatever they want but I love food, so if I am not active then I will gain weight. 

I have found that I really enjoy my FIT Camp classes at one to 1.  I have really enjoyed working with the girls in the class and my instructor was great.  Wait did I use a was?  Yes I did, because last Friday we found out, and I didn't actually find out until Monday, that Trevor had been fired.  I know that as a client I don't really need to know the ins and outs of an establishment, but I signed up to work with Trevor at One to 1 in his fit camp classes and now he's not there.  I feel a little disconcerted, and I don'tt know how the rest of my workouts will go.  I know I will stay until the end of this six week challenge, because I AM going to win, that way I can get the honeymoon I deserve!!!!

But I am a creature of habit and I am worried that if I do not like the new trainer, then I may not continue with One to 1.  That's the honest truth of it, I may just leave and go to another gym, or just get a collicut pass and work it into our schedule that we go the same times I was going to One to 1.  We will see what happens at the end of this six weeks though. 

Trevor was a good trainer and I hope he gets work soon, and I, as one of his clients, am saddened that I have lost him as a trainer.

Working out Outside

I am so HAPPY summer is finally starting to come into existence.  It has been a long, uncomfortable winter, way to cold for this Cali girl.  (I know I grew up in the prairies but I am sure my being born in Cali has made it so I do not acclimate very well to these horribly cold winters)

Two nights ago, Mr. A and I went to the steam baths for a relaxing evening. It was something we hadn't done in a long time. Before going there though I was determined to get a run in, as I have made a resolution to be active everyday that I don't go to the gym. I am trying to get some extra cardio in so I can lose more fat weight, and not gain so much more lean muscle mass.  So out for a run I went around my neighbourhood.  It took me 30 minutes and I ran 3.04km.  Which I feel isn't bad for the first run of the season.  After getting home and changing it was off to an evening of relaxing.  It was a great steam, well except where they turned the lights out on us in the steam room.  That was a little frightening.

Then yesterday, Trevor decided to provided us with our first outside workout.  It was not as bad as I thought it would be.  We had to do 15 push ups, then lunges across a field, 15 overhead squats with a medicine ball, then lunges again, 15 medicine ball slams, then lunges again.  When these were complete we went for a .60km run.  I was able to complete this 3 times.  So my next goal will to be complete this 5 times.  It was nice out last night, not to hot just the perfect temperature for making the blood pump outside.  The only issue with working out outside are those pesky mosquitoes.  Man I wish they would spray for them, they are a complete pain, everywhere. 

The other wonderful thing that the city of Red Deer has funded are outdoor gyms.  Throughout the city there are multiple locations where these gyms can be located.  They are a resistance training gyms that use your own body weight and they are set up as a circuit gym.  If you can't afford gym equipment in the summer all you have to do is take a jog to the nearest outdoor gym area and you can workout until your heart's content.
So if your city is like mine find these gyms, and if not proposition your city council to help make your city a healthier city by installing these gyms!!!

May 2 to June 15th

For the next six weeks I am going to be on a strict diet and exercise regime. AGAIN!! Yes I have seen results but I want to see more results especially since my wedding in basically in 4 months, less than 4 months.

So no sugar for this girl, lot's of water and lot's of protein.  I am not cutting out carbs, but cutting down on carbs.  I am planning to adhere to this diet with the utmost conviction. I want to win this challenge, but there are a few people that are even biking to the gym before working out, I'm not doing that, so I have to bring my A game every other day of the week.

No more excuses no more!!!  Gotta do this up right and if I do I will win a $1000 travel voucher that will by my gift to Adrian and I for our wedding.  Have a goal now let's get to it!!!

New Six Week Challenge

So I am starting a new six week challenge at the gym.  I am hoping to see some more phsyical results that are noticed in my appearance again.  But I have a lot of hard work ahead of me.  I NEED to win and that is going to drive me to try my hardest.  I am hoping I see big changes but I know I am going to have to work extra hard to see these results coming through.

Here are some rather unflattering photos of me from my first six week challenge and here are some more updated photos, can we see a difference?

The next picture has my before and after from my six week challenge, I am at the bottom!!

Springing Forward with Healthy living

I love the spring!! I love summer, I like fall and I tolerate winter (only because I am not yet rich enough to move away from here and live where it's hot during those dark black and white months).  But I love spring because of all the changes that are happening and the burst of energy I always feel at spring time.  I want to be outside more, I enjoy being outside walking around and doing other outdoor activities. 

Spring is going to be a great time for me to cement in these new habits.  I will become more active and my eating habits have definitely changed.  Spring is the time of year that helps motivate me to see what is new with the world.  The trees are budding, pussy willows are peeking out, birds are singing, gophers are digging holes (although this isn't always great, I hate twisting my ankles in those holes). 

I have made a decision, while I was taking myself off regular pops, I switched to Diet pops, mostly diet Pepsi, but now with Spring I have decided that I am going to stop drinking pops altogether.  I am going to finish the last of the diet pop in my house and then that is IT!! No more pops for me, I will drink strictly fruit juices, water, teas and coffees.  Even when I eat out I am going to keep this restriction.  It's going to be tough, because I love my cold drinks in the spring, but I am willing to give it a try. 

So now I am changing my diet a little again, because I am trying to cut out all carbonated drinks.  I think I can do it!! In fact I know I can do it, I did it once before for lent, so that was 40 days, here's to 40 days plus with no carbonated bevies!!!

Walking

I have decided that I need another new goal, this one will be a subset of my other goals.  Being active and losing weight and exercising but I am sure I will be able to maintain this goal if I work at it.  I find often that I stay indoors when the weather is not very nice.  I won't venture outside and become some what of a hermit.  I have decided that from now until I get married I must go out on a walk every other day.  So basically on days when I do not work in Ponoka I will be walking. 

We started today and it was pretty fabulous out. It was brisk and the wind was a little chilly, but the fresh air was so.... refreshing (who knew) lol.  We walked from my house to my friend Tamara's house which is a good 20 blocks away and then we walked back home.  Little man even walked with me a bit, but he got tired and cranky and wouldn't hold my hand so he cried in the stroller for a good portion of the walk.  Thankfully, it wasn't too busy out so not too many people saw him having a fit.  It was a good two hour walk and I LOVED it!!! I can't wait to do it again and I may even do it tomorrow even though it won't be every other day.  But I am going to schedule it in, I find if I schedule things in I work better.  So that's my goal and I will chart it to see if I can maintain it for 21 days to make it a habit.

Here are some pictures from our walk!

diet where have you gone?

Diet oh diet where have you gone?  I was looking for you the other day and I couldn't find you so I snacked on half a Reese's peanut butter egg... I looked a couple days before that I couldn't find you either so I tried out a mini blizzard from Dairy Queen.

Today I am baking and baking, bread and cookies and then fixing Fettuccine Alfredo for supper... diet I am still missing you? 

I have come to a conclusion, in regards to my diet.  Thought I have taken a few liberties with my diet I don't feel as if I am cheating. And in actual fact I almost feel as if my diet has become my regular eating habit!!!  I know shocking right.  I no longer feel like I am on a diet, when I am feeling snacky I often go for a bit of fruit or some veggies or some kind of healthy carb, like whole wheat toast with natural peanut butter.  I sometimes give into temptation but I am ok with it, I know that one treat here and there is not going to ruin me and put me back on the fat gaining train.

I fit comfortably into a smaller sized jean now, my shirts are fitting better and I have much more energy.  All in all I think I am being successful on my journey to my wedding day.  Just gotta keep going until I feel like I need to maintain my weight and not lose anymore. 

So diet oh diet thanks for becoming my regular diet and not something I do because I am dieting!!!

It's a rollercoaster

I hate weighing myself!!! I HATE it.... but here's what I have figured out.

Whatever the number on the scale, it does not mean that I look worse for it.  I believe that my weight is up on the scale, but I also believe that it is muscle mass, not fat.  How can I say this?  Well simple, my clothes fit better and I am fitting comfortably into the smaller size now that is definitely on my way to my goal size.  Hopefully things will work out, I just have to stop being so focused on the scale numbers.  And I have to be more diligent with my diet tracking.

Set-backs and achievements

Well I have had a little weight set back, but I am not sure if it's a gaining of fat or lean muscle mass.  I will explain.

Last week was my birthday, so I had a little bit of a indulgence break from my diet plan, seriously, I ate a lot of cupcakes.  Cupcakes with icing, and cream cheese filling.  I felt I deserved a treat, and I do not feel guilty about it.  so my weight went back up and I am trying to figure out why.  Well not really but what is interesting is while I was eating the cupcakes, my weight went down and then stayed the same, but afterwards, like a week later, my weight went up.  So is this a result of adding some fat pounds or a result of building some muscles since I continued to work out, and how can I tell the difference?

I mean my clothes are still fitting the same way, I am not squeezing into any of my pants and the pants that were starting to become loose on me are still loose on me.  So now what does that let me know? 

I am going to say I will meet them in the middle, I may have gained half the weight in unwanted fat pounds, and maybe half the weight is lean muscle mass. 

Next week we get measured then I am on holidays for a week, but I am still going to work out, just have to make sure I go to the gym while I am in Saskatoon, I think I may be able to talk my sister into going with me!!  Or going to for walks with little man, better pack that stroller!!

Bikini Season over wedding Date?!?!

So today I am going swimming with the family again.  Actually Chandler may be opting out to go play badminton, but the rest of us are going swimming.  I forgot to do laundry this week (actually not forgot, neglected would be a better description) so my swimsuit from last week is still not clean so I was forced to try on my dreaded bikinis from before I was pregnant. 

Quaking as I pulled out the four different swimsuits (all bikinis) I laid them on my bed.  I knew two would be tight squeezes and I did not want to go to looking like a sausage to the pool, so I immediately put them back.  I tried on a pair of board shorts, but they gave me that horrible muffin top look and I did not want that at all.  So I took a deep breathe and tried on the other two suits. 

At my skinniest I had a bikini that I had to actually tie into a knot on the top part for it to fit me properly, I tried that one on first.  The bottoms fit nicely, but the top was a little tight, except when I undid the knot it was a little loose so there was no happy medium.  Which left me with my last suit to try.

It was one I had bought at my skinniest, but it was a bit big, so I never got much chance to wear it.  I had high hopes that it would fit without creating extra rolls on my body.  I turned around and faced my dresser mirror and was pleasantly surprised with what I saw reflected back at me.  There was no excess baggage, no extra rolls that aren't normally there.  Actually, I was missing some rolls from the last time I had tried on a bathing suit that was not my maternity bathing suit.  I know so sad. 

So now I have an added incentive to get into shape for this summer, I want to rock it out in a bikini, I want to feel comfortable walking down the beach in just my bikini and know that I look like the hottest chick on the beach.  Well at least in Adrian's eyes and honestly that's already the case but I want the other boys on the beach to be jealous of what Adrian's caught.  ME!!! 

So superficial, but I can't wait!!!  It's going to happen.  I may post a picture later, if I am feeling up for it!!!

The Results are IN!!!

Ok so I am going to provide everyone with my results and explain what my next step is in this process.  I am very excited about all this.

To start though let's go back to where I was 6 weeks ago.  On January 9th, 2009 I had my first weigh in and measuring.  At that point my weight was a whooping 200 pounds, my impedance (resistance) was 502, and my measurements were: Neck 33cm, Shoulders 108 cm, Abdomen1 89cm, abdomen2 102cm, glutes 114cm, right thigh 64cm, chest 96cm, calf 39cm, and bicep 35cm.  My body fat percentage was 37.3% which calculates to a total of 74.3lbs of fat on my body (gross!).  My lean body mass was 124.7 meaning I had a 1.7:1 ratio of lean body mass to fat ratio.  That being said the calculations show that I had 11% excess fat on my body.

My goal was to go down 20lbs.  I didn't quite make that, but I did drop 13lbs in my 6 weeks.  My long term goal is to get down to 169lbs and 26% body fat for a healthy body.  I would even like to drop down to 160 lbs, but that could change based on the muscle I gain which may keep my weight up, so I am not as concerned with the number on the scale as I am with the size of my wedding dress.

So my weight was down ~13lbs( this weight fluctuates during the day, so at the time of my weigh in I was at 191).  my measurements read like this; Neck 33 cm, chest 89cm, abdomen1 81cm, abdomen2 95cm , glutes 108cm, thigh 61 cm, calf and biceps were the same, shoulders 103 cm.  That equals a total of 15 inches lost during the 6 weeks. My body fat percentage is now 31.3% for a total of 61 lbs of fat which means I lost 13.3 lbs of body fat but I did gain 7 lbs of Lean body mass.  So I am now down to 5% excess body fat on my body (yeah). 

So there you have it those are my results and I am very happy with them.  I can now fit into my pre-pregnancy clothes, so I am looking forward to continuing my lifestyle change to fit into those other clothes that I was wearing when I first started dating Adrian.

I plan to continue with One to 1 fitness doing the group work out classes, as I get closer to my wedding date I may look into changing my workouts so that I can work one on one with my trainer just so that I can keep on my path to healthy living.  I am very much enjoying this journey that I have taken, I am so glad that I did and the trainers at One to 1 are amazing.  If you are in Red Deer and looking to make a healthy change, stop in and join my class you won't regret it.  I look forward to sharing more results with you in the future!!!  I will post some pictures soon!!

Last week!!

OMG I can hardly believe it, I have one week left in my six weeks to a new you. Do I feel like a new me, well I feel more like the old me then I have in a very long time.  There are definitely some changes that I still have to work on but some of the changes have come very easily and I am enjoying incorporating them into my life and into my families healthy living.

So next Monday I go for my final weigh in and measurements, so that is when I will post my final results and then I will hopefully have some links to send you to see my video interview or some first time pictures with last week pictures.  It's going to be exciting.

I can give you these results though. I am definitely feeling a change in my body at this point.  I have more energy, I am not as tired as I was.  I still like my sleep and can still go to bed early but if I stay up an extra hour or two I am not a walking zombie the next day.  I feel healthier and I am not getting sick even though everyone around me is catching every cold and virus that is floating in this environment.  My clothes are fitting better, I even wore a pair of guess jeans I bought back when my dad was still alive in the hospital yesterday that I hadn't been able to put on since I bought them because I had gained weight after he passed away and I gained more weight because then I got pregnant.  Now two years later I am getting back down.  Next stop is to get back into the pants I bought when my dad was in making his big mistake 8 months prior to his death. 

I hope you are all looking forward to my results as much as I am.  Soon maybe I will be comfortable posting bikini pictures too!!! lol

New results

I have now officially lost 11 pounds, and a total of 11 inches!!!  I am so excited about this turn of events.  There are two weeks left in my program and I need to work extra hard to lose those last 9 pounds to reach my goal and then I will be half way to my long term goal. 

I was a skeptic, I will readily admit that, I didn't think the diet component would be that big of a deal, but apparently it is.  So after struggling with it for a bit, I have adopted it into my new routine and things are going well.  I still would like to indulge every once in awhile and have some tasty treats, but I am refraining for now because I want to win the competition but also because I am determined to see this through.  My treat after the six weeks will be a night out to have a decadent dessert.

But I will keep up with the food plan and the diet plan.  I think that will definitely help, but I will have to adopt some extra workouts to do at home if I do not win this competition to work out with a personal trainer.  I can always continue to sign up with the group classes, but I think in April for sure I want to be working out hard core for April, May and June so that I can be in my best shape and learn to maintain my weight, because that's going to be my next big challenge. 

I have lost weight in the past, but it's keeping that weight off and down with which I struggle.  I mean I can't even blame everything on the pregnancy, I gained a bunch of weight before I got pregnant and then my eating when I was pregnant didn't help matters.  So the next habit I must teach myself is moderation and not doing things in excess.

Any ideas how to do that??

UPDATE!!!

As many of you have read (I think it's only two or three people but hey it's a start I guess) I had begun a six week workout session with a personal trainer at One to 1 fitness.  This six week program is designed to help you loss weight by changing eating habits and doing some amazing workouts.  I know if my trainer reads this it may go to his head, but I vowed to be honest in my blogs and the workouts are hard, but I am able to push myself through them and I am seeing results.

When I had my initial consultation I was asked to give a short intreview in a camera to tell everyone why I signed up and what my goals were for the six week program.  I told everyone that I had signed up because I wanted to lead a healthier life and I wanted to have a healthier body and lifestyle.  My goal for the six week program was to lose 20 pounds.  It seems like a lot of weight, and I will admit that it is but it was half of all the weight I essentially want to lose by June.  By June I hope to be down to my ideal weight and then I will spend June to August and further on maintaining that weight.  They also asked me to identify my biggest obstacle in my weightloss journey.  That was easy, it's my eating habits, the snacking and junk food that I would eat. 

I have had quite the wake up call to the food I am ingesting.  I enjoyed those Fibre One bars, and cereal bars and those things, but they are not that healthy for you.  I have survived kicking sugar out of my diet, and I haven't had many cravings for sugar,  there have been a few, but I have been able to distract myself from eating anything that is high in sugar.  I thought it would be hard, especially with two children at home and a husband, or soon to be husband that was not necessarily interested in changing his diet plans. He still likes junk food, chocolate milk and his beer.   I have not been drinking anything since this started, and I may have a night or two where I drink and stuff, but I am going to be very conscious of my decisions.  Everything in moderation and really some things should be limited.

I really thought I would struggle more with eating, and there are a few times when I do struggle, but the biggest change that has happened, well the two big changes that have happened have made things easier than I expected.  The first change was cutting the processed sugar from my diet, that's all those corn syrups, fructose, glucose sugars that are manufactured and not really healthy for you.  I have supplemented in Splenda for those times when I have to have a sweetener on a product to be able to ingest it.  I tried to eat oatmeal a few times without sugar and I thought I was going to choke on it, I could barely swallow it, it just did not taste good.  But they have brown sugar splenda now so that makes things much better.  The other change has been the cutting back of prepackaged food.  I don't eat very many frozen meals or frozen meat products anymore.  We eat more fresh prepared food that is homemade.  It's been a big change because we were completely a family of convenience.  The funny thing is, when we make a meal from scratch it really only takes an average of 20 minutes longer to prepare and then we have so many leftovers afterwards for lunches and stuff that it is very much worth those extra 20 minutes. 

So now here is the update on my results at the half way mark of my six week journey.  I am down 9 pounds from when I first weighed in at One to 1.  I have lost 6+ inches since starting with them.  Those inches have come from my chest (2), waist (3) and glutes (1).  So there have been some definite gains from this program. 

Last night I didn't want to go, I wasn't feeling well, but I dragged my butt down there and I did my work out, it was worth it! I am glad I did it and I felt better when I got home, so now for the next 3 weeks I am making a goal to be more diligent to my meal plans and to actually work out more then the 3 times a week with the group class.  I will let you know more results as I find them!!!

oh my poor finger

So I am coaching Junior boys Basketball this year, and it's part of my activity level.  I really enjoy basketball and I am having fun with my team at our practices and the games.  It's a good thing we are having fun because they aren't winning but they are definitely improving.  We started out with 18 boys and I now have 11.  But basketball and I are a dangerous mix.


When I was in school I played basketball in junior high, in high school I lost interest and was working so I could not give up my time for sports.  I sometimes regret that decision but it is what it is.  However, I don't think i was a bad player, I do think I was an easily injured player.  I don't remember a season of basketball passing without me taping up at least four different fingers in buddy splints and an ankle.  I remember having a middle finger and a ring finger that more closely resembled sausages then actual fingers.  I remember hobbling around on crutches and taping my joints all the time.  So I was a little accident prone when I played basketball.  I had hoped that I had outgrown this unfortunate hazard, but apparently I have not.


Today at practice I jammed a knuckle on my pointer finger of my right hand.  I don't think it's broken because I can bend it and stuff, but it hurts to extend my finger and bend it into a fist.  But i have movement, it feels more like it needs to be cracked or popped back into place.  Hopefully it will heal quickly, because it is very awkward trying to type with a buddy splint.

I am surviving on No Sugar

So after a horrible day on Thursday and  a not great evening on Friday I think my body is finally adjusting to the lower sugar intake.  Which is frankly amazing.  I am still getting headaches in the evening and I am not sure why that is happening, but I am going to ask my trainer tomorrow about that.

As for the rest of the training it's going really well. We had  workout last night and I push my group to finish two circuits of the training.  I was exhausted by the end and my muscles are starting to stiffen up today but I really felt good about completing the workout.  I really do enjoy working out in group settings so I think to keep myself active I have just maintain signing up for workout classes throughout the year.  That way my caloric intake can be a bit higher and I can have some of those snacks that I can't eat right now while I am trying to get my metabolism up. 

The results are in though, I have already got back to my pre- Christmas weight.  So there are pay offs for working out, and that makes me extremely happy.  This show is on the road and I am going to excel at it!!!!

Diets do they work?

With my new fitness plan I am on a new meal plan.  This meal plan has me cutting out sugar, you can read how well that's going for me in my previous blog 6 weeks to a new me.  But this is a kind of diet, I mean it's that sugar free diet.  I know it works and I know it's healthy I have seen the results, and I know the goal for my fitness leaders is to help us make a change in diet that will stick with us for the rest of our lives.  But I don't know that I am real big into diets.

There are so many diets out there, the protein diet which cuts out all Carbs, the grapefruit diet, the Jenny Craig system, Weight watchers, Biggest Losers diet plans, I mean how do you tell the truth from the fiction. 

Many of those short term diets are just that, short term.  You will see results but you won't see life long results unless you eat a grapefruit everyday for the rest of your life.  I mean they even did an experiment to prove that you could lose weight by living on junk food.  It's the Twinkie Diet Experiment.  A guy lost 27 pounds by eating 5 twinkies a day a supplementing those twinkies with a protein shake, some multivitamins and some celery or a can of green beans.  And now this same person is showing how by eating a lot of fruits and veggies and healthy food you can gain weight as well. 

And I understand that processed sugar isn't healthy for you, but here is the problem, people are born with a desire for sweets or salts, and I could give up all the salty food in the world but you better back off my sweets.  So how do I still get my sweets, without eating refined sugar??  I understand that soda and chocolate bars and chips are not good for me, they offer no nutrition, but they taste so yummy.  So now I have to get my mind into a place where I realize that it's about healthy choices over fast choices.  I just don't buy that sugar is the devil. 

So with that said, "Which are the long term winners in the dieting world?"  I am sure they are the calorie counting diets, that teach you how to lose weight in a healthy manner. I also know from past experience that portion control is very important to losing weight.  I remember a few years back that I read Dr. Phil's book on weight loss and dieting and it was a real eye opener and it really did help.  I was able to lose like 10 pounds just by altering my portions that I consumed. 

So I am going to power through this struggle diet now incorporating controlled portions and no sugar. So if i turn into a vicious monster in the next few weeks well that's why. 

I just need to figure out if I believe this no sugar nonsense or if it's just that nonsense.

6 weeks to a new me

I signed up for a six week make over with One to 1 Fitness in Red Deer.  I am in  a class with ten other people and I am on a new meal plan.  We are competing against each other for a chance to win a 3 month membership to the gym with a personal trainer.  It's a pretty cool prize but I don't know that I am in it for the prize per se. 

My motivation is coming from a desire to look my best and to feel my best.  Neither of which I am feeling today.  I am definitely going to struggle with this challenge, and the biggest struggle is going to be the eating component of this challenge. 

Seriously, I love food, and I especially love sugar.  So what do you think my meal plans consist of?  Yup, no sugar, good carbohydrates and proteins and some fats, but ZERO sugar. It is a struggle already. 

Yesterday, I had zero sugar in my diet, except for the naturally occurring sugar from the fruits that I ate and in the fruit juice I drank.  But other than that there was no sugar, and no artificial sweetener either.  Yesterday, I thought I was going to die. 

I made it until 4:30 and then I thought I was going to die.  I was nauseous, I had the worst headache in years, and I didn't have my full mental capacities with me.  I was detoxing or getting the flu.  But as I drove home from Basketball practice, everything got worse, I inhaled an orange on my way home and that seemed to appease the sugar beast within me for 30 minutes, enough time so that I could concentrate on the road, but I really shouldn't have been driving in my condition.  I was lethargic as well and just wanted to lay down to die. 

I got home and ate supper, if you can call a 1/4 cup of potatoes, and 1/4 cup of corn, that my youngest son helped me eat a supper.  Oh and one chicken wing.  Then I bathed my child and set him up to eat his bed time snack.  I then laid on my couch and watched Grey's Anatomy.  After Grey's at 8:00 I went to bed, I literally crawled into my bed attempted to read a book, but failed miserably, so I just laid down and I was out for the count. 

I woke up this morning with a minor head ache, not as debilitating as yesterday's headache but it's still there twitching behind my eyes.  I am subbing today and I have a Basketball tournament all weekend so it's going to be interesting how this new meal plan plays out.  Hopefully, the sugar monster will be beaten and I can get on with not feeling like a detoxing drug addict soon!!!

Monday is my next workout so look out world, here I come!!!

I am SO FRUSTRATED

I don't even know how to express the level and intensity of my frustration right now.  I admitted defeat last month for my 30 day challenge but that in no way meant that I was giving up on my goals to develop a healthier lifestyle.  I snacked a bit during the holidays but not in excess.  I ate a little more while I was on holiday but I also walked and moved around so much more.  So why is my scale mocking me??  It says that I haven't maintained my weight, I haven't lost anything, in fact I am heavier now then I have been since I was pregnant.  I have never been this weight. 

So two things could possibly explain this situation.  1. my scale is wrong, and so are the other scales I sat on during my holiday.  2. I have built muscle and I am at the point where I have gained muscle mass and very shortly I am going to have a huge weight loss as the fat starts falling off.

Ok so maybe two is a wishful thinking type thought, but it could be possible..... because I know that  I have not ate over 28000 extra calories over the last two weeks to have constituted this weight gain.  And that's 28000 extra calories over what I need to eat to burn off through the day.  So if I am not going to loss any weight and just gain the weight no matter what I do, why do I bother??  Well I bother because I have a goal, and I know I can reach it, I just have to get back onto a schedule so we will see what happens in a months time.