Give up or Give In

Not sure what happened last night but it was a rough night.  Little Man went to bed around 7:30 which is becoming more and more usual.  I wish he would stay up until 8:00 then both boys would be going down around the same time.  Yes my 11 year old still goes to be around 8, his choice.  So Little Man is a little out of sorts lately, he is cranky and is waking up again in the middle of the night.  All he wants is to cuddle so I am not sure what's going on with him.  Last night he woke up at 1:30 and again at 4:00.  Usually it only takes around 10 minutes to soothe him the first time he wakes up and at 4 I would usually pull him into bed for his morning feeding.  But not last night, he cried for over half an hour and only fell back asleep when I laid with him on the couch, but even then, he kept thrashing around and tossing like he couldn't get comfortable.  It made for a very long night for me.

I have been following my night routine, but getting out of bed this morning at 6 am was not something high on my priority list.  Then I didn't know if I was going to do my exercise routine or anything for that matter.  I seriously considered taking a lazy day.  However, better judgement won out and I got up at 6:40 and made smoothies for Adrian and I then started my work out at 7.  So I was an hour behind schedule but I still got up and followed my routine.

It was hard making that first step to get out of bed and turning on the work out DVD was another hard task but once I had done it I just got going and I feel so great!!  I am happy I did my routine and work out, it has set the tone for the day!!

Routines routines routines

Today marks the beginning of my 21 day "let's make a routine a habit".  I have set myself up with morning and evening routines that I must follow for the next 21 days.  I have certain things I must do when I get up and when I go to bed.  These things include showering, exercising, brushing and flossing, make up breakfast, BCP, just regular stuff really, but things that need to be done.  I have also included in there 15 minutes of me time at night, 15 minutes for me to read or write or both, but just 15 minutes for me to do what I want before going to bed. 

Let's see how the next 21 days go to see if I can turn these routines into habits, that way I will have met another one of my goals.  Soon it will be time to re-evaluate my goals and come up with new goals or restructure the old so I can experience success in these goals.

That budget goal is now going to drive me crazy, but I think I may have it licked.... just got to put some stuff down to paper to work it out and then I think I will have it!!

Thank you

This is a big THANK YOU to those of you who read and commented on my previous blog.  I am being very diligent in not getting discouraged but it is hard when I feel as if I have been working so hard to lose this extra weight and I am not seeing any results (scale or clothing wise). 

After much consideration and thought I have determined that this is what is going to happen in the next few weeks.  1) I am going to go and see my doctor for a check up and try to figure out with him a healthy plan for me... maybe it will be to keep doing what I am doing and the results will come or maybe there will be something else we will add into my regiment.  2) I am going to become more Calorie aware with my eating.  I believe I am eating healthy but it may be that I am eating too much or still too many calories so that my metabolism is not really kicking in yet.  3) I will not be focused so much on the numbers but I will focus on my energy level, my moods, my fit of clothing, and my ability to challenge myself more in workouts.

If all this fails I will most likely be following a diet plan like Weight Watchers.  I have never been a big fan of diets, however, I do think that Weight Watchers is one of the better ones out there.  They don't give you prescribed meals, but let you eat a certain number of points per day.  So in with changing my lifestyle, this will help me to become more aware of what I am eating and how that eating is effecting things like my weight and moods. 

I have always said that if I have plan I am not stressed, it's when things don't work out or I don't see things working out that I get stressed.  As I have grown though I have learned to sit back, re-evaluate the situation and come up with a new plan to make my goals attainable.

Weight Loss Goal Update

So I am reaching a road block in my ambition to lose weight.  Not that I don't want to lose weight but it is so discouraging when the weight loss does not seem to be happening at ALL!!!  It is so frustrating to be doing all the right things, not eating junk food, not drinking pop, exercising, eating balanced meals and still the results do not come forth.  


I understand that I am not a 400 lbs person (friends if I ever get there please do me a favour and lock me in a room with only a mail slot to pass me carrots and water).  I don't want to die but I will obviously have a problem with food if I get to 400 lbs.  I understand that I may not see the results that the contestants on the Biggest Loser see in the first week, but I should be seeing some kind of results.  I just don't feel like I am seeing any.


Now with getting that out of the way, I am here to say that I am not giving up.  I am just going to up my conviction to this goal.  I am going to really start watching what I eat, and I am going to be exercising more consistently.  Harder work outs for longer periods of time with little workouts in between.  I have to lose this weight.  I want to feel great about myself again.  I did it before and I will do it again.  


If anyone has any suggestions or tips please let me know I will take them and adapt them for myself and my family.  Not only will I get healthy but my family will be healthy as well.  It will become a snow ball effect!!

Working out Schedule

So with a friend of mine I have started working out daily.  Right now it is easy because school is out, I am not working and neither is she, however we did talk and starting next week we are going to pick two days a week that we work out during the evening that will be set up for when winter comes. 

I have been working out with Little Man, so he is part of my workout.  I will be pushing him in a stroller or carrying him in a snuggli.  He weighs about 19 pounds now so that is a lot of weight to be carrying or pushing around.  It should help with the workout by having a little bit of weight added.  I am hoping that by the middle of August I can start reporting seeing results.  At times I feel like I am not making any progress, in fact at times it feels like I am moving backwards instead of forwards.  Or rather I am making the scale move up and not down.  I am trying not to get discouraged but changing a lifestyle takes a lot of work.  If I am successful maybe I can start this as a business to help other people as well.  Become one of those life coaches lol.

Making a routine

So it has taken some time but I can now say that I have developed a night time routine that seems to be working.  My next step will be to write out a step by step checklist that I can ensure I am following it every night.  It's a way to keep my following the routine consistently so that I don't start getting lazy.

i asked a friend the other day, and it made me really start to think, but how come it's so easy to break good habits but to break a bad habit seems to take the work of God in will power to make it happen??  People always say it's hard to quit smoking, quit eating junk food but have you ever heard anyone say it's hard to quit dieting or exercising???  I really do want my life to have good habits that are hard to break, but I think after years and years of bad habits and routines this may not be the quick fix I want it to be. 

However, on the bright side things are coming together.  I am scheduling my life so that I am comfortable with it. Now just to decide what I am going to do about work in November.......

Eating out while traveling

So the other day I was taught an invaluable lesson from my stomach.   It was a lesson that I shouldn't have needed to be taught as I am a grown woman and should know better.  But here is the lesson I was forced to learn.... If you are not accustomed to eating greasy fast food, do not binge on greasy fast food....  I did not think I was binging on the greasy fast food, but apparently my stomach knew otherwise.

The day started out fine, had breakfast at my cousins then we got ready to head to the beach.  We decided we would stop at a fast food place for the trip out, just for convenience sake.  We stopped at Jack in the Box and had burgers.  The next thing I ate was ballpark food, fried chicken strips and garlic fries.  I also consumed a lot of soda that day, it was diet soda, but it was as much soda as I would have had in the last two months.  Seriously it was all I drank that day.

Well my stomach got me back that night.  I was sick as a dog.   I learnt my lesson, and now I am very aware of what I eat because the greasy food is making me sick.  But I guess in the long run this is a good thing, it is going to keep me on track for losing the weight I want to lose and also keeping me honest to this Life Style Lift as it is a change for all times in my life not just for when I am at home.

I now know that I am not as young as I used to be and my stomach is not as resilient  to ingesting crap food that it used to be able to do in any situation.